The boy is back in town.
Sorry. That reference is kind of a personal requirement for me. Anyway. It’s been over two weeks since I last posted. My wife and I were treated to a trip to SoCal, nearabouts where we spent the first 6 years of our marriage, and I didn’t think I’d have the ability to post. Truth told: I could have, but I chose not to. The time I would have spent was instead used to read through the first book of DUNE (which happens to be on my 2018 reading list).
Major Highlight of the trip:
We had wonderful time with family and friends, their children, and the food—-oh, the food. Seriously, I want Fish Tacos for life. After some discussion, my wife and I determined that we actually kinda love Orange County. Los Angeles county was a bit of a challenge, but The OC was legit excellent. Of course, a place is only as wonderful as the people, and our trip was all about good fellowship and reunions with friends and family, all of which were a joy.
Also, my son once again proved to be wonderful, as he slept for nearly 60% of our flight time, and he was incredibly well behaved the other 35%, and that last 5% where he melted was basically due to being exhausted and unable to get comfortable for his nap (so I am giving him a pass).
So, yeah, that’s the trip in an incredibly small nutshell.
Onto the first week back…
1). Summing up #onthedaily:
This past week, I was Grateful for my wife and son; my God and my King; love ; dawn coming a bit earlier each day as we head toward spring, long conversations with my wife, and great films!
This past week, I was Focused on getting back to work at home and the office, things in life that are going well, showing love, honest self-examination, gratitude, and enjoying Saturday!
This past week, I refused to Worry about what challenges awaited me in the coming week, things in life that have or are going poorly, being shown love, having all the answers to enact real change in my life, when I will get to see #BlackPanther (it might just be after opening weekend), and returning to work next week!!
This week in themes: What to say? Well, how bout this: I love my family, and I want to do right by them. This is forcing really hard self-examination, and I am beginning to wonder if I may have to flip the script entirely on my self-perception regarding capacity and potential. Frankly, I have always felt I could and should operate at 100% efficiency, maximum creative output, and incredibly disciplined focus. I’ve always thought I would be one of those top-level achievers/performers and a highly accomplished well-respected personal in every facet of life. I am beginning think that based on my life choices, intellect/IQ, and overall emotional health, I may be lucky to barely hold onto a job and a marriage. This has been a really tough realization; and frankly, I think it’s a pendulum swing that will eventually land me in a healthy middle ground of saying, “I can and should be able to do ABC. I will never be able to achieve XYZ. That is not a bad thing. I will do ABC and do it well.” My therapist and I will be working through this further in the weeks and months to come, but I’m wrestling through it in as healthy a way as I can for now.
2). Watch, Listen, or Read:
From iTunes. I didn’t really listen to much in the way of podcasts this week…so, more to come next Saturday.
John Piper at DESIRING GOD on Marriage (Particularly the pains and suffering that take place, and why they are good).
From Other Places on the web and such:
I am following coverage of Toy Fair 2018 by FIGURES.COM, a site for whom I wrote in 2007-2008 and 2013-2015. Friends and former colleagues Jeff Saylor and Scott Rubin are covering, and they are top notch! Attending toyfair was one of my life goals in High School, and I achieved it in 2008—during one of the best Toy Fairs of the last 20 years (that was the year of Indiana Jones, Iron Man, and The Dark Knight—Yeah. LEGIT).
3). More Hopes and Happenings:
This has been a long one, so I’ll just leave it as is.