So, this is Father’s Day weekend.
I gotta be honest; I love being a daddy. I don’t do it perfectly; no one does. And I don’t expect to. But I love my role, in all of its hardships and challenges—the exhaustion, the frustration, and the constant uncertainty. Regardless of the valleys, I savor time on the hills, and I earnestly believe that it’s going to continue being a wonderful journey for days, months, and years to come!!!
Therefore, I continue to seek improvement. I am trying to understand myself better so that I can become the best version of myself possible, for the benefit of our household and the world.
Here’s how this week went in that regard.
1). The Week in Brief “Circling” So, for weeks nowI have felt that I’m circling change but simply not there. I’ve been doing assessments and trying to work with a vision board and attempting to better understand a wealth of factors that have contributed to my ongoing anxiety and inability to manifest a healthier version of myself in the world. It’s been difficult work with constant realizations to integrate and apply to take that next step forward. I’m finding that I am often up-and-down and back-and-forth between hope and discouragement; but thankfully, I am nowhere near the prior panic and disappear that ruled me months ago. Now, there’s a certain amount of resignation and a refusal to be beaten. But I’m not yet where I want to be or where I ought to be. But I feel like I am getting there, little by little, day by day. The work is getting results, and I am circling the deeper things that must be understood to begin a new phase of improvement and healing. Hopefully, I will get to it sooner rather than later!
2). More Hope and Happenings
3). Happy Landon!
This week we went with friends to Sesame Place. On the drive home, my wife and I agreed that Landon’s joy was worth the price of admission (of course, we also got our tickets at about 60% off).
4). Recommended Media￼
Interesting thoughts from Desiring God On Earning Wealth and Running a Business.
This TEDtalk on “Is the World Getting Better”.
This week, I was Grateful for my wonderful family, my faith, a good job, a day off work to spend time with family, the Lord’s new mercies every morning ! ! !
This week, I was Focused on appreciating my wife and son, hope, being grateful for my job, enjoying time with friends and family, striving to do right despite exhaustion and discouragement !!
This week, I refused to Worry about years of working but not pursuing a career,present difficulties that can and will pass, tomorrow, money, life I expected but will never have !!!
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