Well, seems like just yesterday I was commenting on the speed of 2018’s passing…and here we are, with our last reflection of the year. Frankly, the timing could not be more poignant.
The Week in Brief “Mind Your Desires”
This week I had a revelation: My deepest desire has been misaligned; therefore, my satisfaction, contentment, and overall peace and joy was at a deficit, by default, regardless of what I did or what I achieved. All year, I have been aiming most for things that were “good” but not “best” and certainly not within my control.
This is no small thing. In fact, it’s quite significant.
I will not outline what my deepest desire was for 2018 because I do not think it ultimately matters. What matters is my failure to have my desires aligned properly. This failure infected everything I attempted and all I wanted to accomplish. Nothing was enough, regardless of what it was, due to having ultimate desires that I did not have the power to fulfill.
I claim to be a Christian, meaning I claim to believe that God exists and that he miraculously and mysteriously entered into human civilization through the person of Jesus Christ in order to sacrifice himself to rescue his followers from their just punishment. Holding this belief, my main desire should be straightforward: Love God and Do his Will. What is his will? Love him and Love others. Do justly. Love mercy. Walk humbly.
In fairness, I have wanted this in 2018, but I have also wanted more and frankly, I have wanted it to an unhealthy degree. That longing for something else—as good as that other thing or things may have been—set life askew.
Perhaps that is why life has been hard. Perhaps that’s why progress has been so slow. Perhaps that’s he reason why I have been so up-and-down and in-between throughout all of 2018. If your desires are askew, so too will your aims and pursuits, even if everything is “good” on face value.
So, the million-dollar question is this: What does this revelation mean for 2019?
That will be interesting to pursue. I hope you join me. The format for the coming year will be different. The content here also may shift. But I will continue the journey, to manifest the kingdom of God here on earth, as I can, with the time I have.
More Hope and Happenings
eBay wrapped well but not as well as I would have liked. Still, I am content with the outcome, and I can write about it further in my end of year reflection. In order to maintain our financial position, I’ll need to continue with my eBay sales for at least Q1 2019, maybe further. For now, however, I have at least 1 month off, and for that, I am grateful.
I’m going to cut the weekly reflection short here, as I’ll be covering things in more depth in my year end and look forward posts.
#onthedaily RECAP (without missing a day, Hooray!!!)
This Week, I was Grateful for my morning routine , the Words of Jesus , my son’s wonderful enthusiasm or life, hope in the face of uncertainty, hope , and tasteful Christmas lights !
This Week, I Focused on being grateful for my job, controlling anxiety while facing a deadline , enduring, getting some more excess [stuff] out of the house, hope, and enjoying the weekend while I can !
This week, I refused to Worry about all that must be done before our Christmas vacation , repercussions for asking for reasonable things that I want , problems that I cannot solve , things others do that I cannot stop , expectations and demands that attack hope and discourage excellence, and work next week.
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