The First Post of 2019 : I’m Not Ready to Post in 2019.

Not my most beautiful face, but it captures my recent spectrum of emotions nicely.

Well, we’re into the double digits of the year’s first month, and I am just now posting. Further, I am posting fast and loose, just to keep things timely (or at last somewhat timely).

I take full responsibility for the delay: I chalk it up to a combination of post-vacation challenges including jet lag and the missing-family-blues. On top of that, we had some bad beats this week. A car repair that was literally the value of the vehicle was coupled with a tough workweek to make for unproductive evenings used just to recharge and make it through the next day. I could write an entire post on the car issue. We knew it was having some problems in December, and I was praying that the Lord would just get us to/from the airport for our vacation in Europe. He did. The transmission went on Tuesday. Frankly, I think this hit was harder than any others, and we wrestled with it for a bit. I was feeling good about our financial position until Tuesday; now I’m on tilt. But that is what it is, and it’s not the purpose of this post.

All that said: here’s a brief on why I have not posted more on year-end 2018.

I’m not ready.

I still need to reflect on 2018, and I do no know what I intend to do here in 2019, so rather than do some free-associative, half-baked post, I figured I would take the time to make not only the write-up worthwhile but the experience of reflection worthwhile as well. As to the 2019 issue, the truth is that overall viewership is low–so low, I think I could name all of my regular readers on both hands, so there’s real reason to reflect on what I am doing here (if anything), and how I should continue (if, at all).

My intent was to have a 2018 reflection post ready on 01/05/2018. I expected to prepare for it during vacation. I didn’t. So, last Saturday, I figured I’d get it done during the week. I didn’t. So, now I am giving myself until February. You might wonder why I can’t just sit and type up a summation instead of a post about why I am not yet doing a post. Bottom line:  I have some source documents from the year I’d like to review fbefore giving some deeper thoughts on it. I took stats I in my planner, wrote a journal, and I did my #onthedaily tweets outlining gratitude, focus, and a refusal to worry week over week.  I think spending some time in quiet, getting those things in some semblance of order would help me to get a handle on how my prior year went, and what my vision will be for 2019.

So, here’s what’s on the horizon, coming February 2018: First, a deeper recap and reflection, followed by plans for the next 11 months.

Vision is everything. And one thing I’ve definitely learned about the internet is that people are consumers interested first and foremost in the content, then secondarily, those behind it. So, if I am going to add anything of value to the endless noisescape of the blogosphere, the gram, and Twitter, I need to decide what that is and how I intend to do it.

So, that’s the point of this post: to assure you that I haven’t fallen off the internets, and I intend to have more content coming. I just need to create it.

Look forward it February 2, 2019.

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