07/13/2020 : A Shot

Thankful and Contemplative.

I have been given an amazing opportunity by my current employer. I have been tasked with managing not only a single massive project but several. The company may look radically different 18 months from now due to things I am researching and developing now. Further, the future projects that I have on deck, for the long term, are equally exciting. Three years from now, if I simply maintain my present professional trajectory, my life will be radically different. And improved.   

Unfortunately, I cannot disclose details at present about these projects. I can simply say that my role encompasses on-site tech support and training developments. These are not integrated hats but rather hats that needed a wearer at the business and could both fit my head. Thus, I am wearing them, and I am trying to wear them well. I have done well enough that my boss has placed confidence in me to tackle aspects of our business wearing of both of those hats and, to some degree, additional unique ones. But these other areas are also essential to the business’ future and interesting in and of themselves.

So, what does this have to do with anything other than my being dodgy and self-congratulatory? Just this.

I’m not really exceptional. If you’ve known me for any amount of time, you know that. I miss deadlines; I say foolish things. I make bad judgments, and I miss many a mark. But I don’t give up. I show up. Even with egg on my face after eating a whole plate of crow. I’m not exceptional; I just keep moving forward. That’s the point. 

Show up. Work Hard. Rest Well. Repeat.

I used to awake at 7:00 AM or later, but due to assigned tasks, now I awake at 5:00 AM. I am typically one of the first 5 to arrive at the office and one of the last 10 to leave. I’m not a genius, but I strive to speak well. I am not overly skilled, but I am willing to try solutions, fail, and try again—repeatedly. I will admit when I cannot solve an issue and search for others who can. I usually follow-up to ensure the solution worked. Sundays, I refuse to earn income—no work-related or eBay-related email, no packing itemd, no returning calls, or attacking deadlines. Sundays are for me, God, family, and fellowship. And I hold that line fiercely (NOTE: some weeks, I may shift from Sunday to Saturday due to an event. The issue is not the day so much as the discipline). I’ve admitted failure; I’ve admitted fear, and I’ve kept moving forward.

All that being said, you can do the same. Or at least you should be able to do the same, if you work in a healthy environment. If you are able to show up when expected and as expected, work hard the moment you arrive until your essential work for that day is done, and recharge your batteries to do it again and again, you may find yourself given a shot you never expected, and you may even be positioned to take it.

My concern now is whether or not I can live up to it. Can I rise to these challenges? Can I meet them? What does it mean if I do? What does it mean i I don’t?

These are real questions. Hopefully, I will have the courage to answer them here or at least share the struggle of trying.

I guess we’ll see in the months to come.

Thanks for reading, 

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